Tori Spelling is pregnant again.

And I'm not.

This is the first time we aren't pregnant together and I have mixed emotions.

On one hand potty training is coming soon and how great would it be to never buy another diaper again?  Everyone sleeps through the night, can mostly communicate their needs and keep each other entertained.  I am back to an acceptable weight, my pants no longer have an elastic waist band and a bra with snaps in not in my future.

But. 

But sometimes I feel like our family is not complete.  Sometimes I feel a pang of sadness when I am driving our co-sleeper to be sold at Once Upon A Child.  Sometimes the thought of never feeling another kick from the inside brings tears to my eyes. 

We are so incredibly blessed with two healthy, happy, intelligent, beautiful girls.  What if we chance it and something goes wrong? 

I remember watching Tori in a designer delivery gown getting ready to be wheeled away to have a c-section.  She was crying because she had a baby already and was so worried something would go wrong the second time.  I cried, too, with a huge belly about to deliver my second baby because I could so relate to her emotions.

Congrats Tori {and Dean}!  May you have a happy and healthy pregnancy and delivery.  I'm sad to say we won't be sharing the pregnancy journey together this time.

How did you know your family was complete?  Do the pangs on wanting another baby ever go away or do you eventually give in?